U & I
U didn't realise I would hear your whispers,
U didn't consider the twain shall meet,
U changed court in a clever diversion,
U cried wolf as your silence was sweet.
I closed the door so symbolically sudden,
I am no coward in my actions you’ll see,
I took a stand against your faux intentions,
I am not weak as you believe me to be.
U think I have no ambition,
U think your better than me,
U mistook my kindness as weakness
U told lies and thought I couldn't see.
I had a feeling inside if I am honest,
I could sense your backhanded disdain,
I ignored contradictory comments
I carried on through fear of your blame.
U used my troubles like weapons against me,
U smiled like a friend only to face,
U won your hand as passive aggressive,
U took a lie and played it as ace.
I held on to my idealistic notion,
I believed best friends were in it for life,
I sought truth in every word spoken,
I felt trapped on the edge of your knife.
U judged without jury or witness,
U found threat in both friend and foe,
U turned on others with words unforgiving,
U planted seeds of doubt and then watched them grow.
I know that nobody is perfect,
I myself learning through often mistake,
I don’t think you see me as worthy,
I now serve no purpose in your fictional fake.
U changed shoes yet your feet are still nervous,
U can’t hide from the line below truth,
U lost my trust when your memory failed you,
U showed your colours when fact became loose.
I do have ambition that depends on it bearer,
I see mine in my children’s eyes,
I put them first in all of my journeys,
I don’t feel the need to prove it with lies.